Why don't I just keep my mouth shut? My life is not that complicated, but somehow I complicate things and embarrass myself and oh....
So I go into this meeting thinking that I need to apologize to my teacher for possibly offending him by whatever joke I cracked yesterday. Right? Right, so then I start to apologize, and he holds up his hand and is like, "What are you apologizing for?" because he obviously doesn't remember that I made fun of him. He gives me this golden opportunity for me to just stop and pretend I don't know anything, but my mouth just barrels on and decides it needs to EXPLAIN why I am apologizing.
Stupid, stupid mouth.
So then I explain the reasons why I am apologizing, and my teacher starts to look even more confused and tells me that those reasons are no reasons to be apologizing, and just tells me it's fine. Then I apologize for apologizing, and then I tell him that I do really stupid things when I'm nervous and just sink into my chair. So then he asks me what makes me nervous, and I tell him point-blank, "Sir, no offense to you, but every time I come to your class, I am a nervous wreck."
Oh.
He helped me a lot, but he thinks I'm an idiot. I could see it in his eyes. He thought I was before, but now I have just proved it. Oh my goodness.
He told me to come talk to him after class tomorrow too.
*cringes*
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