I wrote a poem over the weekend. It started out pretty simple and superficial, but after a little work on it...it just...
took off. It had a life of its own. I had no idea that it would go the way it did, that it would end up where it did.
It probably is the most raw, most self-exposing, vulnerable piece I have ever written. Granted, I usually write light, humorous, slightly satirical stuff when it comes to creative writing. Occasionally, I'll try a little semi-serious, but hardly ever. This poem became an extension of some of my most personal feelings. I want to put it up here, but I literally can't do it. I gave it to my teacher to critique, but I don't think I'll ever have anyone else read it.
It was crazy. I've never written anything so personal. It was like my heart's secrets were being divided and stretched and then pushed through my fingertips onto the paper so I could see them spread out right in front of me. It was like a revelation just for me, an expose on my own inner workings. Incriminating and enlightening at the same time. And frightening. Oh, wow, it's tough when you finally kind of see what you're like on the inside. And it doesn't have to be bad to be scary. Sometimes just the plain truth, good or bad, is scary when you finally get down to the root of it. It's easy to attribute the cause of any action or inaction to some outside force, but when you get down deep, there's nothing else but you. That is what is scary.
Does that make sense?
On a lighter note, I went on an iTunes shopping spree. Should NOT have succumbed. But did. I should write a poem about that. I'll compare cheap music on iTunes to the song of the sirens.
Speaking of sirens, I bought this:
That's right, ladies and gentlemen. The original Broadway cast recording of The Little Mermaid (my favorite Disney movie) for less than $7.00. I love it. Love it! So, so, so much. It's amazing! You finally get to hear Prince Eric sing--which is the only thing lacking in the movie--and his voice is lovely. I'm very jealous of my friend who got to see the play in New York.
Lucky boy.
One day I'll get to do cool things too.
:)